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There are moments in a person's life when he will pause, take a deep breath, look back on his life, and just let himself drown on the deluge of emotions brought by waves and waves of memories -- all while listening to nostalgic music and/or sipping his favorite drink in the middle of the night.

I used to have these moments frequently when I was younger. Or maybe, I was more aware of my inner self back then, intently listening and taking advantage of these moments to ground myself, have the time to really feel my emotions, cherish events close to my heart, and let go of things that burden me. Of course I can do all of these in my mind, but I think writing and reading them gives a more profound and lasting benefit on myself, so please do bear with me.

As I grow older, I still have these tiny moments when my brain will tell me to stop and have these introspections. These moments, unfortunately, are quickly hushed by the business of life, feeling drained and exhausted from all the day's activities, and worrying that I need to wake up early the next day.

Oh who am I kidding? It's plain laziness.

Right now, as I am writing this brain dump in my little corner of the Internet, I revel on the cathartic and freeing feeling of keeping in touch with myself, enjoying the lightness of being able to unload even just simple and mundane thoughts. 

I don't know why it took me so long to do it again. It's really not hard once I get to write the first few sentences. Maybe it's like doing physical exercise, I know that it's good for me, but it's always convincing myself to start doing it that is the most difficult part. Well, here's to hoping that I keep this up, even not as frequent as before. We'll see.

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